I don't want the gentleman who so eloquently put it on Facebook, "update your shit hommie," to think I'm only updating because of him... :-)
I was planning a new post this evening regardless. Tonight I want to talk about winning a battle with discouragement. This morning I weighed in at 258 on my home scale. If you recall from a previous post that I had decided to go with the home scale starting number 261. Ok so I've lost three pounds but dude I'm starting my fourth week. When I did weight watchers before I lost more than that in the first week and lost a steady one to two pounds every week thereafter and I wasn't even working out. As my husband gently reminds me, that was oh say 10 years ago.
So I'm fat AND old! That's how I was feeling this morning anyway. I felt so discouraged this morning by a number! Immediately following the moment of truth I walked over to my closet, all the while talking to my husband about how I was trying to overcome these overwhelming feelings of defeat. I put on my clothes and I realized, I feel great in my clothes. All of my pants are fitting better and I feel lighter on my feet. So should I focus on this rather than the number on the scale?
I should be ok with the loss of three pounds. I should feel great about the way I'm feeling in my clothes. But you know what? I'm not going to lie. It feels like crap.
What am I going to do with this feeling of crap? I'm going to fight it. I'm going to TNT tomorrow and going to work my butt off. I'm going to continue to follow my points system. I'm going to attempt to do some freakin' cardio this week. I'm just going to do better that's all. Keep on swimming as Dorie would say. This leads me to another great topic...
Why the heck can't I get my butt in the gym to do more cardio? I don't get it! I feel great after a good cardio workout. I know its good for me. I know it will help me take the weight off faster. I just don't get why I get caught in this I'm home and not going back out vortex as soon as I come home. I'm always envious of those people who appear to enjoy their workouts at the gym so much so that it seems they would die without it when I come in there feeling like I'm going to die just getting through it! Why didn't I get the skinny gene and the ra ra I want to workout gene? So as I change my attitude about the number, my goal is to change my attitude about the cardio.
The comments that I've been receiving are so welcome! They have honestly been helping me get through. Keep them coming and by all means if you have any suggestions about tricking my brain into thinking that an hour on the treadmill is just as enjoyable as say.... eating a triple layer of chocolate fudge cake bring it on!
Until next time.... BREAK A SWEAT!
Nik
Don't forget that if you're working out and eating lean protein, you're likely building muscle--which weighs more than fat. I say, if your clothes fit and you feel better, screw the numbers!
ReplyDeleteI agree with Jill! And cardio is hard... no matter how happy those people look, they are in pain too. My favorite author wrote when training for a marathon "Suffering is optional." Pain happens, but its all about good attitude, which is something you have a great amount of!
ReplyDeletehee hee great comments! yes I have heard this theory about muscle weighing more than fat but then one day on the biggest loser Gillian said that if a trainer is telling you that's why you're not losing weight - that's crap... so the theory makes sense to me but I don't know... I pretty much think that anything Gillian says is like workout/weightloss bible. :-) Anyway I totally am better about the numbers now! :-)
ReplyDeleteYou're doing great and you are on the right track...3 pounds lost is better than 3 pounds gained. Getting new outfits because all your other clothes are too big is better than a triple layer chocolate fudge cake and will last longer than the taste of the cake. :-)
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